I want to fall asleep on the phone, and wake up to find he’s still there. I want someone who will randomly call me just to tell me I’m beautiful. I want someone to love me more than I ever thought was possible. I want it so bad, it hurts.I’m bummed, depressed, sad, whatever you want to call it, everyday. I wish there was someone who has been in this position and has gotten through it to help me out. If you’re out there, here, anywhere, help. I hate this feeling. Ohh , Godd . You just hurt me so much . And I just can't stand this feeling anymore . I'm confuse with myself . Half of myself said , " Ohh , Shaa just break up with him " . And another part of me said " Shaa , you know you love him so much , and you can't live without him " . So , then . What should I do ? I'm messed up . He said he love me , but I just don't know whether it is true or , just one of his another drama . To make me stay with him .